if i had a baseball bat or a crowbar i would bash all your windows in

tonight i got so angry. at a car sitting in front of my driveway. at my neighbors.
at my husband. at the police. at a memory. at the way my life has changed. at the way it is the same. at the feeling in my stomach. at my lack of control. at the constant reminder in the mirror.

at the death certificate that arrived in the mail.